Last year at this very moment, I was walking (more like waddling) into Arlington Memorial Hospital. Where has the time gone? In one year, Mikayla has brought more joy, happiness and love into my life than any one person on this earth ever has. (Sorry Adam, it’s just a different kind of love - you understand!)
At 9:43 a.m. April 4th, the most precious human being in the entire world was born. I just don’t know how I could have lived before without her. I love everything about her. She brightens even the darkest day. I just have to think about her or look at her picture, and tears will come to my eyes because I am so overwhelmed with the love I feel for her. I don’t even have the words to desribe the depth of my love for her. I never in a million years thought love like this was even possible. I thank God every day for the greatest gift He has ever given me.
Through Mikayla I finally understand not only what my mother has been telling me for the past 28 years, but the relationship God has with His Son, and the relationship He seeks to have with me.
When I get ready in the mornings to go to school, if Mikayla is awake when I shower, I will put her in her walker and set her outside the shower. The second I shut the shower curtain, she screams. She thinks that because she can’t see me, that I am no longer there. The second she sees me pull back the curtain, she smiles, and everything in her world is ok. It won’t be until she’s older that she will understand that I am still there, she just can’t see me. Is that so unlike how I feel toward God sometimes? Just because I can’t see Him, or see what He is doing, I feel like he is gone. He has taught me that I am like Mikayla when she’s outside the shower. I have to understand that sometimes God takes a shower, and He is just right behind the curtain.
Mikayla has taught me so much over this past year, but God has taught me more. I have a renewed realtionship with Him, and through Mikayla, He was able to draw me near to Him.
An entire year has gone by since Mikayla debuted. and my, what a year will do. Unfortunately, I know the years will only pick up speed.
